This time I have an excuse
By Mike DalyMay 2nd, 2004
For some reason, our new server is not allowing is to connect through ftp, so I do not even have the choice of adding real content to this site. I'm not going to say whether or not I had content to add; I'll just leave that up to the imagination.
Anyway, I've got a final exam next Thursday, and another the following Tuesday. In the meantime I have to complete an honors thesis, a senior project, and start looking for a job. It would be nice if I could update my Portfolio webpage with my two new games, but as it's on the same server as this, I don't really have a choice, do I?
It feels like it's been a long time since I've written stuff here. It hasn't been that long really, but it feels like it because a lot has happened in the past few weeks. I am keeping myself sufficiently busy to warrant sparse updates. I hosted the big joint Game Developers Club and International Game Developers Association meeting a week and a half ago. It went really well, and to celebrate I stayed awake for 65 hours without so much as a short nap. It was quite an adventure; I walked about 5 miles at 5 AM so I could watch the sun come up from the top of the tallest building in our part of Raleigh - the campus library. Saw a fox.
I did make a pretty art picture recently, but Wayne and Wesley say I'm not allowed to show it to anyone ... ever. So, I guess there was no point in telling you that.
I lined up a special guest post-er for this update: my old friend Jewel. However, Jewel is now too busy saving the Princess Toadstool so she's not able to talk. Guess all the stuff I've said so far will have to be enough.
In conclusion, fanboys make me puke.
Anyway, I've got a final exam next Thursday, and another the following Tuesday. In the meantime I have to complete an honors thesis, a senior project, and start looking for a job. It would be nice if I could update my Portfolio webpage with my two new games, but as it's on the same server as this, I don't really have a choice, do I?
It feels like it's been a long time since I've written stuff here. It hasn't been that long really, but it feels like it because a lot has happened in the past few weeks. I am keeping myself sufficiently busy to warrant sparse updates. I hosted the big joint Game Developers Club and International Game Developers Association meeting a week and a half ago. It went really well, and to celebrate I stayed awake for 65 hours without so much as a short nap. It was quite an adventure; I walked about 5 miles at 5 AM so I could watch the sun come up from the top of the tallest building in our part of Raleigh - the campus library. Saw a fox.
I did make a pretty art picture recently, but Wayne and Wesley say I'm not allowed to show it to anyone ... ever. So, I guess there was no point in telling you that.
I lined up a special guest post-er for this update: my old friend Jewel. However, Jewel is now too busy saving the Princess Toadstool so she's not able to talk. Guess all the stuff I've said so far will have to be enough.
In conclusion, fanboys make me puke.
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Hell on earth
By Mike DalyMay 6th, 2004
If it wasn't for a few social activities with special people this week, I could easily list it as one of the worst in my entire college career.
Even by today (Friday), I've barely challenged the stuff I have to get done by the end of school (next Tuesday). I'm working as hard as I can, and still always seem to be falling farther behind. I've been missing nights of sleep. I came down with a miserable sickness which won't go away because I can't sleep it off. I've had a lot of trauma with my senior project which would not be worth going into the details on. I'm dissapointed in myself for missing my self-appointed deadlines for practically everything I'm working on. I'm so stressed that all the muscles in my back are tense and constantly uncomfortable. To top it all off I have nobody to massage them for me.
Add on car, bills, money, job applications, weddings, relatives, and graduation, and you have a fine mess.
Why can't I be excited about graduation? I should be, but I just don't feel that way. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, which is the cherry on top of the unhappiness cake which represents my life.
That's all for now. I'm either going to keep working on my damned senior project or pass out trying. I'm so tired. Make it stop.
Even by today (Friday), I've barely challenged the stuff I have to get done by the end of school (next Tuesday). I'm working as hard as I can, and still always seem to be falling farther behind. I've been missing nights of sleep. I came down with a miserable sickness which won't go away because I can't sleep it off. I've had a lot of trauma with my senior project which would not be worth going into the details on. I'm dissapointed in myself for missing my self-appointed deadlines for practically everything I'm working on. I'm so stressed that all the muscles in my back are tense and constantly uncomfortable. To top it all off I have nobody to massage them for me.
Add on car, bills, money, job applications, weddings, relatives, and graduation, and you have a fine mess.
Why can't I be excited about graduation? I should be, but I just don't feel that way. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, which is the cherry on top of the unhappiness cake which represents my life.
That's all for now. I'm either going to keep working on my damned senior project or pass out trying. I'm so tired. Make it stop.
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Worst weekend ever
By Mike DalyMay 8th, 2004
I last complained, err updated on Friday. Since then,
everything bad has gotten worse, and everything good ... was there
anything good?
Friday evening, I went to bed early (around 7) because I was exhausted. I set my alarm and got back up at midnight. Worked on the program until 8 AM; napped until noon. Went to CH graduation until 4; then worked on the program until 5 AM with a 2 hour break for the driving range. Wake up at 10 AM on Sunday. Work on program until 2. Work on thesis until 9. Short break. Work on math paper until ??? work on program until ??? study for graphics final ?
I have scarcely left my room, made a proper meal, taken a shower, or gotten sleep in the past few days. All the muscles and bones in my body ache, I'm still sick, I'm tired, and I'm burned out. However, none of this is helping solve the problem of the F*@K!NG PROGRAM NOT WORKING RIGHT.
My minigolf game (downloadable from my portfolio webpage) is being expanded to play over the network. After endless reading, testing, and coding on the subject, my game now had 50% more lines of code than it did before. This is just rediculus. I can't start over, but this is too much. I can't make this program work. What should I do? Give up on my senior project and NOT graduate?
To make things just a little more fun, I've basically been home alone all weekend too. Just chillin by myself, alone, miserable. I hate it. I'm not happy.
Friday evening, I went to bed early (around 7) because I was exhausted. I set my alarm and got back up at midnight. Worked on the program until 8 AM; napped until noon. Went to CH graduation until 4; then worked on the program until 5 AM with a 2 hour break for the driving range. Wake up at 10 AM on Sunday. Work on program until 2. Work on thesis until 9. Short break. Work on math paper until ??? work on program until ??? study for graphics final ?
I have scarcely left my room, made a proper meal, taken a shower, or gotten sleep in the past few days. All the muscles and bones in my body ache, I'm still sick, I'm tired, and I'm burned out. However, none of this is helping solve the problem of the F*@K!NG PROGRAM NOT WORKING RIGHT.
My minigolf game (downloadable from my portfolio webpage) is being expanded to play over the network. After endless reading, testing, and coding on the subject, my game now had 50% more lines of code than it did before. This is just rediculus. I can't start over, but this is too much. I can't make this program work. What should I do? Give up on my senior project and NOT graduate?
To make things just a little more fun, I've basically been home alone all weekend too. Just chillin by myself, alone, miserable. I hate it. I'm not happy.
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The twilight zone
By Mike DalyMay 12th, 2004
It feels so weird. I'm out in the mountains now. I'm not even really sure how I got here. I slept for 13 hours last night. What day is it? Weird.
I'm supposed to graduate in a few days I guess. I don't think I have to do any more schoolwork until then. I'm almost out of college. What will I do with myself?
Well, I would have like to have gone out with a bang, but it seems this breif, meaningless post is the last you will hear from Willow: Disaffected college student. Fortunately, I already have a replacement lined up; Willow: unemployed bum.
I would like to post up some pics, but as I said, I'm in the mountains far away from all that. Oh well.
As far as college goes, I think I had a pretty good run.
I'll catch you on the flip-side.
I'm supposed to graduate in a few days I guess. I don't think I have to do any more schoolwork until then. I'm almost out of college. What will I do with myself?
Well, I would have like to have gone out with a bang, but it seems this breif, meaningless post is the last you will hear from Willow: Disaffected college student. Fortunately, I already have a replacement lined up; Willow: unemployed bum.
I would like to post up some pics, but as I said, I'm in the mountains far away from all that. Oh well.
As far as college goes, I think I had a pretty good run.
I'll catch you on the flip-side.
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no news for you!
By Mike DalyMay 24th, 2004
So it turns out our server deleted a month's worth of news posts. This is kind of frustrating considering that I'd written some expansive updates since I graduated. We are trying to recover them. I'm dissapointed in this, so I'm not going to write another update until I either get them back or know for sure that they are gone forever.
That is all.
That is all.
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And we're back!
ByMay 28th, 2004
After a week of brokeness, we've finally got things almost back to normal. The messageboard is in working order, and it actually logs your IP when you post now. I never realized that part didn't work until the 845th reply.
The comments section is making progress, but I don't want to make too many new things for the site until that lazy guy (Willow) decides to design a new layout. I think the comments work now, but they aren't the prettiest. That collapse button is temporary I promise, and one day it will work.
It saddens me to say that my motivation for fixing all this stuff tonight was because I simply didn't have anything else to do. All the Monkey's are gone. My girlfriend and her roomates are gone. My friends that I hang out with from work are either busy or gone. I don't have any homework, I don't feel like watching another movie (I've done a lot of that lately). I feel like I don't like programming anymore.
It's a good thing I'm not majoring in computer science anymore!
Anyway, my main reason for not doing more upgrades with the site is because there is so much room for imporvment it's scary. I look at the code, the database structure, the horror! And it all says back to me, "Why have you made us so ugly? Do you hate us?" To which I reply,."I'm sorry old friends, but I was not clear in thought at the time. One day I will give you a makeover."
One day. One day.
The comments section is making progress, but I don't want to make too many new things for the site until that lazy guy (Willow) decides to design a new layout. I think the comments work now, but they aren't the prettiest. That collapse button is temporary I promise, and one day it will work.
It saddens me to say that my motivation for fixing all this stuff tonight was because I simply didn't have anything else to do. All the Monkey's are gone. My girlfriend and her roomates are gone. My friends that I hang out with from work are either busy or gone. I don't have any homework, I don't feel like watching another movie (I've done a lot of that lately). I feel like I don't like programming anymore.
It's a good thing I'm not majoring in computer science anymore!
Anyway, my main reason for not doing more upgrades with the site is because there is so much room for imporvment it's scary. I look at the code, the database structure, the horror! And it all says back to me, "Why have you made us so ugly? Do you hate us?" To which I reply,."I'm sorry old friends, but I was not clear in thought at the time. One day I will give you a makeover."
One day. One day.
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